Fitness Friday: I’m Going To Cry (Well, I Already Did)
Oh my God, you guys. I need you. I need you so damn bad I don’t know who else to turn to. I’ve been crying for two days.
You all know about me being sick and surgeries and all the other random bullshit I’ve been dealing with. I’ve also on more medicine than a 90 year old. I have to take to take TWELVE pills A DAY. Five in the morning, two in the afternoon and four at night. I find out next week when I visit two of my doctors if I’ll have to take any more.
I don’t want to go into what all of it’s for, because you guys can see that in the past six months I’ve been having a lot thrown at me and I’m a medical mess. I knew the Menopause and estrogen stuff had the possibility of weight gain, but I’ve been put on something for the crazies that not only causes weight gain, it causes acne and my hair to potentially fall out.
I’ve been having a hard time looking in the mirror lately. My skin has already started to take it’s toll but I have a new Clarisonic (I’m also giving one away, click on the icon on the right in my sidebar), my hair is not only really dry but I ran my fingers through it today and came up with a handful and I’m gaining weight. A lot of it.
I don’t understand. I eat right (ish), I work out religiously. I stepped on my Wii Fit last night before I did my EA SPORTS Active More Workouts workout because I haven’t weighed myself in weeks and I burst into tears. I scared everyone in my house (surrounded by men) and I couldn’t even speak. One of my bestests sent me a text and I text cried and she made me feel better, but you should have seen me working out.
I got through that whole thing but I’m not kidding, I cried through every single one. I made my family leave the room and I just cried for hours.
I HATE being sick. I HATE these meds. I fucking HATE THEM!
I’m rolling it out old school. No effin’ way am I going double digits with my jeans again. I don’t even have any tens to put on. I’m sucking in for the eights, though and thank the dear Lord above for Spanx.
I’m doing exactly what I did last year, I’m getting skinny. This menopause can kiss my ass. I never stopped workout out but I did swim in gravy. Those days are done. Starting today, I’m not only drinking a TON of water, I’m eating tiny meals every two hours. No more dining out and I quit drinking weeks ago because just one beer will screw up one of my meds and I’ll die or some shit. I miss beer.
So, people, I need you. PLEASE. I need your support and encouragement and I need you to write a fitness post (or if you wrote one this week gimme that) and link them in my Mr. Linky below. Even if you wrote one every day, I want to read them. I need to know those of you who are having a hard time and those of you who are succeeding (Trish!) to give me some inspiration and motivation.
For the past year, I’ve been the one to motivate and inspire. Now it’s your turn.
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First things first – BREATHE! I love you, you can do this!
Secondly – FIBER! Be sure to take it. Not sure how your pills are with “that end” but fiber will definitely help release toxins. Perhaps a cleanse might help?
Thirdly – cut out red meat and salt right now – red meat will add muscle mass, and I’m sure with all your working out, you don’t want more, you just want to “trim” which would mean turkey & chicken for now. Salt will add water weight, so cut that out. It might seem hard but soon you’ll realize you never needed it. Mrs. Dash is pretty fantastic.
Fourthly – work out, but be sure there’s 20 good heart-pumpin’ minutes of aerobics in there. Run. Jog. Walk briskly. Jump rope. Hula Hoop. 20 good minutes of it should do the trick nicely
Fifthly – cheat. It’s okay to cheat, but be SMART about cheating. Feel like wings? Get some chicken breasts, coat them with olive oil and a toasted/crunched up piece of toast, crumbled and bake it (like you would a cutlet) and make your own wing sauce lightly coated with your own low-fat ranch dressing. Making it yourself allows you to control what you put into it.
Lastly – talk to your doctor. Like, REALLY talk to him, tell him you know you need these medicines but, is there another way, without side effects? If you allow me, I can try to enable some google-fu for you.
I love ya hon. Please tell me what I can do to help.
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Hugs to you Julie,
I started menopause three years ago and gained 31 pounds FUN HUH – NOT. Please have them check your thyroid since they are checking everything else. My hair falling out is the barometer for my thyroid levels – they reduce my thyroid meds in August because I was going Hyperthyroid and now I think they should up my meds again, but my Endo doesn’t think it’s needed and I feel like I hit a wall.
Menopause and thyroid issues SUCK big time.
But I turned things around in April and I am going to do it again is my attitude. Hang in there and we are all here to support you.
Love you Love you Love you Love you
With tons of pretend gravy (zero calories)
But I’m not going to be able to write a fitness post, because if I took the Wii Fit health test it would call 911.
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Julie!!!! I’m here, I’m listening/reading. I JUST wrote a FF post about MOTIVATION! I don’t know if it will help you but check it out. http://bit.ly/53YaBp I will post my link in the morning cause it’s not open yet.
I can’t imagine what you’re going through right now but just know that there are a LOT of people here to support you. Cry as much as you need, and talk talk talk, keep talking and letting it out. And good for you for making those first steps with your eating and drinking your water. you WILL get through it, lean on as many people as you need. We’re here for you!!
Christine´s last blog ..Fitness Friday – Motivation: Where does it come from and how do you keep it?
You’re doing Awesome. Most people would just add a bottle of Fukitol to their long list of meds. Instead you’re bawling your eyes out while working it!! WOW!! What a woman!!
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Well, I don’t have any fitness posts for you… on my site anyway.. but I wanted to tell you that I love you tons, and I am here if you need someone to talk to! You have my number… and my email, and my… well.. you know how to get a hold of me
I just want to run and give you a huge hug right now…
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Oh Sweetie, I know it sucks beyond what I can image, but it will get better.
We all love you very much! I am sending you some serious cyber hugs.. There maybe some breathing issues before I am done hugging cuz I am doing it so much….
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(((HUGS))) Hang in there, you are wonderful and such an inspiration to me. You are an amazingly strong woman, and this is just a temporary feeling. Tomorrow might not be better, but there will be better days to come.
I’ve linked to a post I wrote last week about my experience with the Couch 2 5K program. And honestly, I think about you and your success when I’m doubting myself.
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Don’t be too hard on yourself. Continue to make good choices each day. Talk to your doctor about all your meds and side effects. ((Hugs))
Secret Mom Thoughts´s last blog ..Fitness Friday
Oh Julie I am so sorry you are feeling bad. Things will get better with time.Unfortunely time sometimes doesn’t come fast enough. If you need to talk you can call me. I always have time for friends. Take it easy and try to not stress about it. I found that stress packs it on too.
Love ya Girlie
Tonoogle (Tonya)´s last blog ..Fitness Friday
Honey, we’re here for you! I got on my treadmill this morning…does that count? I’m such a slug, and you’re such a wonder woman for plugging at it and doing well despite all the shit life’s been throwing at you! Sending good thoughts and love your way…
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Hang in there, Julie. As you know, I’ve had my own host of medical issues to deal with, too. My weight has gone back up, not way, way back up, but to where I’m not happy with it. We’re on a journey. There are going to be great days and then there are going to be days like you describe above. We joined EA SPORTS Active’s family to offer encouragement, accountability and support to each other. We must continue to remember that we’re all in this together and that we didn’t do the first 30-day challenge because we wanted to meet Bob Green and Allyson Sweeney. And not just because you wanted to meet me and Kari (@pocahontis), too! Ha!
Keep your head up and keep fighting. We don’t ever get to that wonderful weight and then get to stop worrying about it.
Onward. Now go do an obstacle course on More Workouts! And if that’s not enough, just put on the PT Walking counter and take a stroll outside, get some fresh air and thank God for all the blessings we have in our lives.
See you in a few weeks.
Donny “Daddy” Claxton
I’m so sorry! I hate the medical stuff, too – though I can’t pretend that I know what you’re going through. I’ve been through some crap (my first three years of marriage was all doctor visits and constant bladder infections that weren’t really bladder infections, it was in my head, yada yada – ended up being endometriosis). You know, I’m finding myself gaining weight right now out of depression from living in an apartment (which I HATE), eating just because, and it’s too cold to go outside – and I want to go outside and walk. So I’m with you, and I’m going to do the same thing you are! I’ll try to get a Fitness Friday post up today, I want to share the Wii Mommies Ning group anyway.
I’m going to drink more water and eat less, and work out more.
You are an encouragement always, and I really think you are the coolest person ever. I’m gonna start praying for you, too.
Lindsey@A Kindred Spirits’ Thoughts´s last blog ..MySims Agents Wii Game Review
oh I can feel the tears, oh wait those are mine. I’m gaining lately too. My wii is not happy it almost went ugh! So it’s not just you.
colorful veggies are good for toxins too.
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I would miss beer too if I were you. That is a major bummer. I imagine weight gain because of bloating meds is a nightmare and extremely frustrating because it isn’t your fault and it is difficult to counter it. Your diet change will help – it is one thing you have confessed to slacking on before. But I am telling you – a change in diet will work wonders on your exercise efforts and may even make your body feel better and lead to less meds! Here is my only offering of a health/fitness related post:
http://lifesnips.com/fitness/100/seven-stages-of-finding-better-health/
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you go girl! you can do it!
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You GO girl!!! I gained weight when I developed my dreaded gastroparesis… NOT FAIR…. but I am working my tail off to get things straight again. You CAN Do this… You WILL do this…. YOU ARE WOMAN, HEAR YOU ROAR!!
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I don’t have a fitness post, but I just want you to know that I am praying for you. You are such a wonderful and gorgeous person and I hate that you are going through this. Please know that I am on your side and if you need anything… PLEASE, do not hesitate to ask. If you need someone to write a guest post or something for any of your blogs, I am more than willing. I know how it is when you’re sick and you just don’t feel like sitting at the computer…
Hugs and Love to you!!!
Desiree
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I haven’t come by for a while and shame on me. I’m in the double digits again and just had my hysterectomy, laproscopic edometriosis removal, ligament repair and rectal repair all at the same time.
http://momstart.com/2009/12/recovery-sucks/#comments
But you sound like you are going through so so much more. I worry about you. You are an amazingly strong women inspiring so many. It’s wonderful that you are always so honest on-line.
With my surgery I’ve had no fitness and am utterly depressed because I can’t wear any of my own pants yet. The gas hasn’t left my stomach yet so my swelling is still too big, or at least that’s what I’m telling myself. I’ve put on so much weight before my surgery that I only have one pair of jeans that fit me. I refuse to buy anymore jeans in a larger size so I’m doing laundry or wearing sweats every day. So of course I look like a slob.
Depression makes me eat more and the one day I did get out and walk after my surgery, the day after I was so exhausted I slept all day long. Which I actually did that again today because I was forced to do my stairs 10 times yesterday and I’m supposed to “try to not do stairs”.
My stepmom was here taking care of me and I had an argument with my husband and well she ended up having to call a taxi to go to the airport an entire day early. So I’m even more depressed and I can’t blog about that last bit there.
I don’t want to go back on my anti depressant medication. I hate taking drugs. You can e-mail me anytime and we can commiserate together. louise@looksblue.com.
I’m not inspiring right now.
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Hang in there, dude. I don’t even have half the issues you do and I’ve been going with “fuck it” lately. But if you can do it, I can do it – so obviously even when you don’t feel like inspiring, you’re inspiring!
Just hold on and know there are tons of people who love and support you (…and I would be one of them)
Sending huge hugs your way!!
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I am so sorry you are going through all of this. I hope the Doctor has good news to come.
Even though you cried though, you still made it through your workout – and that is AMAZING! You are very inspiring!
We all go through rough times in our journeys. You will get through this, and you will kick ass!
Big hugs to you!
Wendy
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First of all, Julie, I am so damn proud of you for all that you have accomplished, and for all that you continue to plug through day after day it is ridiculous. I admire you, I look up to you, and I believe in you.
With that being said….I put my pain with yours and posted and am really going to try and follow through this time. Took me two hours to write this post. I hope that I stick with it this time, because I hate feeling this way. I am joining fitness fridays!
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Hang in there, babe. I don’t do fitness posts at my place, but I’ll tell you that at boot camp this week, we did the two-minute timing drill for push-ups and sit-ups. I thought I sucked, so I came home to check my results against the military’s scoring.
I exceeded the maximum push-ups, and almost maxed out the sit-ups, too.
Hang in there. Keep exercising. Keep up with the fruits, veggies, and whole grains. And let your body surprise you. Mine sure did. Push-ups? I suck at push-ups!
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You aresuch a motivation to us all….We have seen you struggle this past year and still working it! Sometimes losing weight and getting skinny arent getting healthy…focus on your health, not your weight.
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Hang in there Julie. I know it’s tough now but hang in. I bet it;s the meds that are screwing your weight up etc. That has happened to me before. I have to tell you that when I started blogging, your site was one of the first I came upon and I was so inspired by your story and weight loss. I joined the Wii Mommies even before I got a Wii. Part of my motivation to lose weight was because of your story.
We all go through highs and lows. I was having a low laast week but I decided that I just have to keep pushing through it and continue doing what I am doing.
You will get through this. Hey you lost the weight and maintained it. Right now it may be out of your hands because of the meds but it will get better. (((HUGS)))
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